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@Rich56 ugh, I'm sorry to hear that, it sounds horrible and I understand the triggers! I was just talking to a friend and used the example of boxing. We all have aggression, and we all have the capacity to take real pleasure in expressing that aggression in combat and defeating and dominating another human. But in real life, you can't do that because it causes enormous harm (witness literally every war.) But if you don't explore and understand and befriend and integrate your own aggression, then your relationship with it is adversarial: It creates inside you a tension, an inner struggle where you're trying to suppress a part of yourself via force. And by caging that part of you, you enrage it and it grows stronger, and then you end up acting it out - for most of us it's not by actually invading Ukraine, but for one human alive it is that, and for the rest of us it's still via microaggressions, little ways we hurt each other through our own unfelt aggression. Boxing is this magical thing we're able to do where you can be best friends with someone, and you can step into a boxing ring, and you both understand that when the bell rings, you've become combatants. You're really, fully fighting - you're not holding back and faking your punches. You get to experience your own aggression and get to know it and feel it. But you also know that you're doing it with consent, and with protective gear and the controlled sandbox of the boxing ring. You both understand that when the bell rings again, you stop. And neither of you confuses real life for the ring - it's very obvious to you both that just because you fight in the ring, that if one of you were to punch the other on the street, it would be a horrible violation. I think boxing is an incredibly positive thing, then: creating a safe, controlled environment for us to experience and feel an aspect we all have, and it should be encouraged as a place to learn about ourselves - not just a catharsis (fighters who end up with real anger problems and DO start street fights, for example, I think have really missed the point of it.) For me, I wasn't athletic in school, and then really had a lot of difficult later in life coming to terms with my own aggression - I kept it buried because I was afraid of it, having never had an environment to experience it safely (say, on a football field.) I think that's why I'm so adamant that spaces like this one, where it's fantasy and nobody actually gets hurt, are both vital and ALSO should be used to explore and learn about ourselves, not just blow off steam when some dark urge or another gets too strong and we have to keep it out of its cage briefly before forcing it back in there. There's a big difference between controlling an urge by keeping it caged, on the one hand, and integrating an urge by befriending it so we can consciously choose the spaces where we act it out. In the former, we're never in control of the urge because we haven't realized that it is part of us and chosen to love it; in the latter, we know it is part of ourselves and we have agency over it. And, as a bonus, in the latter case we can choose to love the urge, and because it is part of us, that work is the work of self-love. By definition, as long as we have urges and aspects of ourselves we fear and suppress and fight, we do not fully love ourselves. And I think it's pretty important to love yourself. Having said all that, triggers are real and it's important to love them, too, and loving them means respecting them and treating them with care. Just because I think boxing is powerful doesn't mean it's for everyone. If someone grew up in a physically abusive home and got punched regularly, maybe boxing is a lot for them, maybe it's excruciating even to watch. And in that case I'd still say that's trauma they may want to work through, but in their case they're not going to start by just strapping on gloves and hopping in the ring. We're physical creatures and the body can only take so much, and change is gradual. So I totally get that reading this story right in the situation you're in was... not really what you needed. Like I said, don't worry that you'll offend me - it's fine that it's not for you, at least not right now (and maybe never!) Be gentle with yourself, and I'm sorry about your situation with your brother. "Hurt people hurt people," as they say, so take care of yourself first, but as you can I'd suggest bringing as much kindness to your interactions with him as you're able. Thanks for the thoughtful conversation. Again, to me the value of these spaces is far more than just cumming (though don't get me wrong I do that a lot too!!) So interactions like this one really warm my heart, and I appreciate you and your thoughts a lot.