@Rich56 I'll add: Part of what's motivating me to say this is that I ABSOLUTELY acknowledge my writing has changed and my recent work has - very deliberately! - gotten more intense. I'm doing that on purpose: I've been doing the exact thing I'm suggesting you do, here. I'm looking at what pushes my buttons in erotica, and trying to feel out the edges of it, and ask myself why, when I hit one of these boundaries that flips things from arousing to triggering, what the trigger is, and what I can learn if I'm willing to look at it honestly, rather than letting the aversion it brings up scare me off. I have a very different view of the relationship between erotica and real-world events. Real-world events can cause real harm, and I see fantasy as a safe sandbox for exploring particularly the urges we have that can't be safely realized without harming others. In fact, I look at a lot of real-world sexual harm and see the perpetrators as people who could have benefited greatly from this exact safe sandbox. To your aversion to the cashier taunting the customer by calling him a pedo: I think a lot about how common older/younger attraction is in the gay community. It's everywhere! Daddy/boy, daddy/son, older/younger, and so on are incredibly prevalent in cis gay male culture. And they often have this palpable tension to them: Younger is hot, but... not TOO much younger. To me, this feels clearly like two separate forces at play: The erotic attraction to youth conflicting with the societal shame around ephebophilia and pedophilia. I really don't believe that most people who are attracted to younger guys really have a "sweet spot" below which that attraction vanishes on its own. I think the sweet spot is merely "as young as I can get away with before my shame interferes too much." If you see erotica as an extension of reality, then you might see it as quite dangerous to use erotica to explore that shame by pushing into those uncomfortable spaces. But because I see erotica as a fundamentally safe bubble outside reality, I think it's actually very important to do that exploration here. I look at the sort of person who does, for example, cause sexual harm to minors in reality, and what I see is a person who let his own terror prevent him from honestly exploring those urges in a safe way to learn about them and integrate his shadow side safely. In other words, I think child sex predators are people who are so terrified of their attraction to youth that they let it control them. I think that looking honestly and unflinchingly at every urge we have, especially the scariest ones, is actually the way to make sure we never cause harm by acting out those urges. It is our own fear that gives them power over us. Every urge is just a housecat, on its own: only by fearing it, caging it, and treating it as a terror do we turn those housecats into feral panthers that then have the strength to overwhelm us and motivate truly harmful acts.

@Rich56 Hey, sorry this one didn’t resonate with you. I use this forum and my writing here to explore my own psyche, and, well, they call it “edge play” for a reason. I think everything on this site is largely about taboo and perversion and control vs helplessness and all that - externalizing desires onto others so we can have our cake and eat it too - and of course the entire context here is it’s erotica, fantasy - sort of the ultimate way of dodging reality to begin with. I’m struck by how strong your reaction is, and wonder if there’s something interesting in that. The nature of edge play is that it doesn’t take much, in a fantasy, to tip our reaction from “fuck this is so hot” to “this is absolutely horrible and disgusting.” And I think that threshold is very personal (as evidenced by the other comments - clearly this story pushed hard against the edges, so responses are very polarized.) What I’d offer is this: The intensity of your reaction may be fertile soil for you to use. I think there are two ways you can go with it. The first is to choose to see your reaction as a reasonable and merited response to a story deserving it. That’s fine, if that’s what you end up doing: I don’t know you, and your reaction doesn’t harm me. But - well, here’s an example. I’ve noticed on Twitter a strong overlap between the furry community and the diaper community. But there are furries who really despise diapers, and you’ll see them pop up responding with quite a lot of vitriol to diapered furry illustrations, saying it’s revolting and trying their best to shame the artist into stopping with the diaper side of things. When I see that, from the outside, it seems very clear that the strength of reaction isn’t really about the diapers or the artist, but about the furry for whom the diapers are a trigger. And I always think about what underlies that trigger. For me, some of my most fruitful work has been when I’m willing to take a strong aversion I have and ask, “what is it in me that is wound up so tightly that encountering this trigger causes it to lash out with such force?” Because, again, if you just want to say, “it’s not about me, it’s about the story, and the story is horrid and revolting and I’m confident enough people would agree with me that I think there’s nothing worth investigating in myself about my own reaction,” then you do me no harm; I have no skin in the game of how my story impacted you personally. It’s just that I have a hunch if you took it instead as an opportunity to learn about yourself, you might find quite a lot going on inside you. Concretely, I’d say: See that the story is a relatively inert thing, like a plywood wall rebounding a tennis ball: the intensity in your response is actually coming from something inside you; the tennis ball is coming back at you with such intense force only because something in you hit it that hard towards the wall in the first place. And engage yourself with non-judgmental curiosity: What IS the tension in me this story is reflecting back at me? Who knows; I might be wrong. It’s just a hunch. And at some level this site is a diversion for getting out of reality and jerking off to fantasies. But at another level I think fantasy and our reactions to it are powerful tools for learning about ourselves, and I’d far prefer my writing here help readers with a little self actualization and a more permanent unwinding of those inner springs. So I hope this one - particularly because you dislike it so strongly! - might give you some real, valuable insight into your own inner workings.

@Rich56 I’ll add: Part of what’s motivating me to say this is that I ABSOLUTELY acknowledge my writing has changed and my recent work has - very deliberately! - gotten more intense. I’m doing that on purpose: I’ve been doing the exact thing I’m suggesting you do, here. I’m looking at what pushes my buttons in erotica, and trying to feel out the edges of it, and ask myself why, when I hit one of these boundaries that flips things from arousing to triggering, what the trigger is, and what I can learn if I’m willing to look at it honestly, rather than letting the aversion it brings up scare me off. I have a very different view of the relationship between erotica and real-world events. Real-world events can cause real harm, and I see fantasy as a safe sandbox for exploring particularly the urges we have that can’t be safely realized without harming others. In fact, I look at a lot of real-world sexual harm and see the perpetrators as people who could have benefited greatly from this exact safe sandbox. To your aversion to the cashier taunting the customer by calling him a pedo: I think a lot about how common older/younger attraction is in the gay community. It’s everywhere! Daddy/boy, daddy/son, older/younger, and so on are incredibly prevalent in cis gay male culture. And they often have this palpable tension to them: Younger is hot, but… not TOO much younger. To me, this feels clearly like two separate forces at play: The erotic attraction to youth conflicting with the societal shame around ephebophilia and pedophilia. I really don’t believe that most people who are attracted to younger guys really have a “sweet spot” below which that attraction vanishes on its own. I think the sweet spot is merely “as young as I can get away with before my shame interferes too much.” If you see erotica as an extension of reality, then you might see it as quite dangerous to use erotica to explore that shame by pushing into those uncomfortable spaces. But because I see erotica as a fundamentally safe bubble outside reality, I think it’s actually very important to do that exploration here. I look at the sort of person who does, for example, cause sexual harm to minors in reality, and what I see is a person who let his own terror prevent him from honestly exploring those urges in a safe way to learn about them and integrate his shadow side safely. In other words, I think child sex predators are people who are so terrified of their attraction to youth that they let it control them. I think that looking honestly and unflinchingly at every urge we have, especially the scariest ones, is actually the way to make sure we never cause harm by acting out those urges. It is our own fear that gives them power over us. Every urge is just a housecat, on its own: only by fearing it, caging it, and treating it as a terror do we turn those housecats into feral panthers that then have the strength to overwhelm us and motivate truly harmful acts.

@Derek Williams glad to have you joining in the fun with all the hot chapters ahead of you. Be sure to leave a comment when you reach the end

@Coockiesgall I was staying up late into the night to get chapters out quickly, but then they started getting longer and I wanted to put more thought into them. Already started next story series so hopefully you come back for more

@GermanSeed thank you, glad you like :)