y'all are krazy but I love ya! For the fans, thanks for the support. For the critics, it's ok I can't be mad at you... if you don't like my stuff. I can't respond to some of the comments because that would involve a deep conversation about fetishes and kinks that IF you don't share the fetish we'll likely not see eye to eye. We all have different sensitivities. Have a fantastic day everyone!! I'll get to more writing very soon. I'm in the middle of moving and switching jobs so I'll write when I can. I have an adderall rx now which has solved all of my attention details. No more distractions!

It was in the last chapter

Calm down dudes. We all have choice in reading stories. If you don't wanna read it, don't read it. Accept your choices in life. If you don't like it, it's not Orrin's fault. It's no ones.

Nice~ I'm actually surprised nothing was mentioned about the Christian Father being gay O.O

Once again I call bullshit on the idea that "fiction doesn't matter". "It's just RP", "it's just a fantasy", "relax, it means nothing, don't take it so seriously" What are you trying to ignore? It sounds like the author and some of the commenters want to have it all: read gay transformation porn, get their boners off, hate themselves, hate jocks, and pat themselves on the back for being so honest and real. Because my fantasies matter the fuck to me, and when my fantasies involve hating other people and myself, I try to figure that shit out before I hurt someone with my hate. Learn what the word "faggot" means before you go abusing it.

I really like where this is going! Great writing, I can't wait for the next chapter!

I'd love to hear how Wade influences those outside of his home. Or how he influences Conor's and Justin's choice of job, name, attire, choice of friends

2 very different stories - the details were good - from the smells and leaks from the fat slob, to the language and the bigger glutes and thighs of the dancer. Not bad for 1,000 words apiece!

I'm the guy who wrote the comment starting with the quote "I'm not saying I'm homophobic cause I used to be gay". I know what roleplay is, I've been playing P&P RPGs since I was 8. But nowhere do you state that this is roleplay, or some sort of imaginative/speculative/fantasy writing. Instead you insist in both the piece itself and in the comment that this is a more or less faithful description of your life. Now, I don't have a problem with pretty much any of the stuff in this (as well as its predecessor) site. I have seen a lot of questionable stuff here - racism, antisemitism, homophobia, misogyny, rape engrandizing etc. it comes with the territory with a site of this nature, and I respect that even if I don't like the specific topic. I even think it may be good in some cases to air some of the darker elements in one's psyche from time to time, and face that this is a part of who you are, and better to articulate it in fantasy form than to act on it in real life. But here's the point - that's fine and well as lone as it IS fantasy (wishful thinking, wish-fulfilment, revenge-fantasy, what-if, dystopia or any other type of fantasy). I even indulge in writing stuff like that from time to time. But I know that this is just that - fantasy, and do not confuse it with the real world. Here, as I said before, you made it sound like this is a more or less accurate description of a process you are undergoing in actual life, which is a whole different thing. If you are now saying this is roleplay, than I take back what I said in the earlier post. Role play away as whatever role takes your fancy. You write very well, and that's the most important thing. I will probably not read much of your work as, frankly, this type of story really turns me off, but that does not reflect on you as a writer.

This was an interesting story. What caught my interest was the narrator's ongoing mental changes as he actualizes more of himself and acts to do what he wants. He admires muscles and the guys who have them. He doesn't like EVERYTHING about the guys who have muscle - he thinking their constant groping of their junk is crude and gross, but he sees that associated with the guys who have obvious muscles, so he's curious about the connection. As far as the self searching - "Am I straight? Am I gay? What kind of gay or straight guy am I?" all of that is actually pretty realistic. People question themselves internally all the time. It doesn't mean they suddenly radically turn into something different. The narrator is a young man who is working out to make himself more muscular. He's also looking for friends who are interested in the same things he is. This story isn't a political statement or a judgment - but someone can put their own interpretation on it. Personally, I like the slow build up to the self identification, and I says kudos to the narrator for working out to become the muscular man he wants to be. He doesn't have to become a dumb a-s or a flaming queen or a cocksman when he builds his muscles; those are all completely separate identities. Keep up the good work, xORRINx. I've enjoyed your work before. At times, in between the fantasy parts, you ask some interesting questions about self-identity: Is my appearance who I am? Or are my thoughts who I am? How much do my thoughts, actions and appearance make who I am? This narrator is a loner whose only apparent sexual release is jacking off. He self identifies as being gay, but he also thinks about what it might be like to have sex with women. Totally normal human being here - there's no agenda one way or another. This is just an accurate depiction of "the way my life is now." Good writing. I am interested to see where this character takes his thoughts and how he acts out on them.